One year ago this week, our baby boy was conceived. It's so hard to believe that your life can change so quickly, because as soon as I knew I was pregnant, the world became a completely different place. I started to see the world through the eyes of a mom. Instead of thinking, "What kind of a teenage girl would run off with some guy she met on MySpace?" I think instead, "I can't imagine what her mother must be going through."
I care more now about issues that never really bothered me before...global warming, pollution, the Ozone layer, bird flu, violence on television, etc. I am completely freaked out by things that have always bothered me, but now more so...child molesters, tension in the Middle East, terrorism, school violence, etc.
Tears well in my eyes when I see any kind of mother-child interaction on television that is warm and fuzzy. Could be remnants of hormones, sure. But really, it's because I'm reminded of how much I love this little guy.
Where I used to live for spending time with my husband, my favorite television shows, and a long, hot bath (or a sale at the Coach outlet), I'm now living to make J. smile or better yet, hear him laugh. Don't worry...I still live for those other things...I've not completely lost my sense of self. I just live for those things a little less now.
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Oh come on...admit it, a sale at the Coach outlet is ABSOLUTELY number two on the list!!! HA!
Seriously, that is a beautiful picture and such a perfect post. You said everything exactly right. I define my life in before and afters, as in, when I hear a date, I think, "Ooooh, that was BEFORE I had a baby and my life changed." It really is the most life changing of any event.
In college, all I wanted to do was to work with abused kids...now I can't even watch the news if it's about any child, in any part of the world. I actually feel my heart ache for them and their family. Days after E. was born and Katrina hit, I just sat in my bed (usually breastfeeding) and cried for those poor moms holding their hungry babies.
It really is amazing and it's something that no one can prepare you for.
I agree completely...
What nice, fat, chubby little arms. He's a cutie!
Very well written. Those cheeks are absolutely edible.
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