This is it! (okay, now that Kenny Loggins song is stuck in my head)

I'll be leaving in a bit to take J to the babysitter's and then have to pick up hubby because he is working a case today and won't have time to meet me at home. Then it's off to retrieve some eggs!

I keep going back and forth between being calm and being anxious. This has been a very stressful week, which is certainly not ideal. I made the mistake of looking at some IVF blogs last night and couldn't seem to find any with happy endings, which is not a good thing right before bed. Realistically, I know my chances are good. But some doubt is to be expected, right?

It was so much easier trying to conceive when we didn't have J. I love him more than my own life and am so very grateful for him, so let me explain. I mean, there is not much opportunity to truly relax. I love my husband dearly, but instead of taking J. in the other room when I am trying to rest because I don't feel well, he will continually say, "J., stop that!," which just adds to my stress levels.

He was in the room when the IVF nurse explained that this afternoon I am to rest and cannot operate machinery, yet last night, he felt it was perfectly reasonable to assume that I could drive my car back after he picked up his car this afternoon. Um, no. No, I cannot drive. I need to sleep, or at the very least, vegetate. Everything I am doing right now will be in vain if I cannot relax at least a little bit. And I swear, he was A LOT more sensitive to these things when we were trying the first time.

But I digress...

Anyhow, I feel better now that I have vented. Off to get the little one ready so we can start our exciting day!

11 Years!!!

Today is my 11-year marriage anniversary. I say marriage and not wedding, because 11 years ago today, my husband and I tied the knot at the Justice of the Peace Office. Our big wedding was a year and 3 months later. We celebrate the big wedding as our real anniversary, so this year will be the big 10.

Most people know about this. We've only made it a secret to my husband's grandmother, as she equates marriage outside the Catholic church as a sin worse than co-habitation. Too funny.

I remember the day like it was yesterday...we went to the JP, with two of my husband's friends from the Army as witnesses, and afterwards went to some steakhouse for dinner. After that, my new husband went to a friend's house to work on his boat. My dress was lime green with white flowers.

Now you can see why I'm all for celebrating the big wedding!

Eight years ago today...

Here's what I was doing...

Why I love my husband so much: Reason #102

He's spent the entire day shampooing the carpets! Gotta love a man who's not afraid to nest!

I'm DEFINITELY going to keep him!

101 Reasons...

In honor of Valentine's Day, I give you 101 reasons why I love my husband so very much:

1. He puts up with me
2. He's so very handsome
3. He wants to be a dad as much as I want to be a mom
4. He's been to every single one of my prenatal appointments
5. He's fun to be around
6. My friends love him and vice versa
7. He loves to do landscaping around the outside of the house
8. He's very good at special projects inside the house, like painting and stuff
9. He talks to J. through my belly every night
10. Before I got pregnant, he didn't bitch when I bought my umpteenth Coach bag
11. He is supportive of my career goals
12. He gets along great with everyone in my family
13. He lets me have guy friends without getting jealous
14. He always looks great when he dresses up
15. He takes good care of our dogs
16. He makes up songs and sings them around the house
17. He just got a big raise at work
18. I couldn't think of anyone else I'd rather spend the rest of my life with
19. He understands my need for computer time
20. He takes baths to read and relax
21. He doesn't talk about other women in front of me or say things that are insensitive to my feelings
22. He still opens the car door for me sometimes
23. He loves to snuggle
24. He tells me he loves me 100 times a day
25. If I want something bad enough, he lets me have it
26. He smells good (usually)
27. He has the most beautiful hazel eyes. Sometimes they are green, sometimes they are brown, sometimes they are gold...just depends on what he is wearing
28. He loves my giant boobs
29. He says things like, "Your belly is getting so big...I love it!"
30. He actually likes my natural hair color
31. He takes care of me when I am sick
32. He doesn't drink around the house just to do it
33. He loves the Florida Gators as much as I do
34. He's very good to his mom and grandmother
35. He lets me shop
36. He is very smart
37. He is comfortable around my gay male friends
38. All of my aforementioned friends think he is hot (which means that he is, and not just to me)
39. He indulges my love for Duran Duran
40. He's not afraid to cut a rug on the dancefloor
41. He cares about my thoughts and feelings
42. I trust him wholeheartedly
43. Deep down, he's still a kid
44. He actually likes to go shopping with me sometimes
45. He isn't afraid of cleaning
46. He lets me hire a cleaning lady
47. He takes the dogs out when it's really cold outside
48. When we drove to Maryland, he let me listen to my iPod the whole way there (and he drove the entire trip)
49. He cleans up after the dogs when they puke
50. He makes me very happy
51. He doesn't have any crazy vices, like drinking or drugs (though he does like to gamble once in awhile and what man doesn't watch porn?!?)
52. When I was in college and we were dating, he used to help me pay my bills and send me money for tuition
53. He's my biggest cheerleader - he keeps me grounded and on track
54. He is going to be an incredible father
55. I love the sound of his laughter
56. After 11 years together, he still give me chills
57. He watches Grey's Anatomy with me, even though it bothers him a little bit that I am infatuated with Patrick Dempsey
58. He was actually afraid that the band members of Duran Duran would hit on me if I met them
59. He lets me sleep in
60. He cooks -- and he's really good at it too!
61. He is very affectionate
62. When we fight, he will usually do something silly to break the tension
63. He's my soul mate
64. He comes home early from work just to spend time with me
65. When he's out of town, he calls me several times a day
66. He loves my dad as if he were his own
67. He's very good at his work
68. We've grown up together, not apart
69. He's very attentive to my needs, if you know what I mean ;)
70. He thinks it's cute when I wear pajamas all day long
71. He's athletic
72. He rubs my feet without me having to ask
73. He compliments me, even when I look like shit
74. He likes to travel
75. I can be myself with him
76. He doesn't take it personally when I'm in a bad mood
77. He makes me smile
78. He saves the last of the strawberries for me
79. He's responsible
80. We have just as much in common as we have differences
81. He doesn't mind all of my silly nicknames for him
82. He's very generous with his kisses
83. There are still things that surprise me about him
84. He lets me have my birthday and Christmas presents a few days early because he knows I can't stand waiting
85. He gives good advice
86. He doesn't mind going grocery shopping when I'm not in the mood to leave the house
87. He's extremely loyal to his friends
88. He's practical with money, but he tolerates the fact that I am not
89. He's the perfect combination of masculine and metrosexual
90. I love the sound of his voice
91. Two words: Johnny Appleseed
92. Even through the worst of times, he never gave up on us
93. He has a positive attitude
94. He doesn't have a need to go out and party with his friends - except on special occasions
95. He's a natural leader
96. He sticks up for me when I need him to
97. We have fun wherever we go
98. We share the same political views
99. We get along -- like peas and carrots
100. He always has my back
101. He does little things every day to remind me of how lucky I am

HOME!

Words CANNOT EXPRESS how good it feels to be home.

9 whole days of home...amazing how I used to take it for granted.

My husband picked me up from the airport yesterday and we went out to dinner. When I got home, I found that he'd stocked the refrigerator with my favorite foods and baked me a cake.

How amazing is he???

One thing that happened at work this past week that I must share...the woman who is making my life a living hell emailed me a handout that she'd been distributing to students. In it she talks about marketing your language skills by level of competence. She says, "I took three years of French and the only word I can remember is gracias." Gracias????!!!! WTF????!!!!

This is why I am SO DAMN HAPPY to be home!!!

ahhhhhhhh.