Day 7

Day 7 of the Atkins Diet...getting frustrated because the scale hasn't budged since I lost the initial weight (which they say is water weight), even though I have been in ketosis all week AND have worked out a few times. I have to admit though that my jeans are fitting a little better and I'm not feeling as jiggly. Still, since I was 18 years old, I have relied on the scale to help me make peace (or declare war) with my self-esteem. 

Oh, how I long for the days when I didn't have to worry about such things! In high school, I could eat whatever I wanted...cafeteria tostadas at lunchtime, cheetos, pizza to my heart's content...and I wouldn't, couldn't gain a pound. Then the whole "fat free" movement occurred. I remember it like it was yesterday because T, my best friend at the time, was obsessed with it. I will never forget going to Subway with her and another friend one day...she ordered the seafood salad sub and when she got it, she freaked out and sent it back because it had mayonnaise in it. I thought she was being a little crazy until she explained that "mayonnaise has fat and fat makes you fat."

From that day forward, I had a love/hate relationship with food. I loved food...still love food, but I hated how it made me feel when I ate something I "wasn't supposed to eat." My weight goes up and down, up and down, and up and down as a result.

I am still happy with my decision to try Atkins, even if the weight isn't pouring off because I really am feeling better overall. Fatigued some, yes, but it has made me feel ambivalent to the sweets that I used to crave oh so much. Hopefully the weight will start shedding soon though because I've got at least 10 pounds that need to come off, and if I can be greedy here, I'd love to lose about 5 more on top of that.